i’ve been thinking about what to do next.

not just just with my light novel which is the project with priority, but also, other ways in which to promote my own writing.

i had an idea a few years back to publish a book of prose. it wouldn’t be as long as my compilation of poetry, Soft Thunder, but it’d be a nice length.

now when i’m saying years, i really do mean years! i think i conceptualized my compilation of prose back in 2019 with the name Icarus Was A Flower. i even started a document in which i started collecting all my different works to publish with it, then it just…fizzled out.

i’m thinking i might do that again, but this time including some vague excerpts from fanfictions, blocking out names and other identifiable features of the original intellectual property as i feel i’ve definitely showcased a lot of my best work in those projects.

honestly, it makes me sad sometimes to know that the general populace has this negligent view of fanfiction. some of the best writing i’ve ever consumed has been fanfiction!

but it’s not easy to change people’s minds on that. some of the people i interact with on a daily basis, most of which insist they’re true readers, would never consider giving any fanfiction an opportunity, even when the most popular works they indulge in originated as fanfiction!

it’s incredibly frustrating, but i’ve come to accept that i will never be taken seriously as an author outside of the fanfiction community until i’ve pushed my own original work. it’s so frustrating, because those words are mine, even if the world is not.

so why not take some of that back?

it might be a controversial decision, but if i’m not infringing on anyone else’s intellectual property, then i’m not really seeing an issue with putting my own words out there in a way that they’ll be consumed outside of the lovely niche it’s been confined too.

i’m doing my best to find more time to invest into my writing. it’s a little difficult between my day-to-day: school, work, and other adult things. it’s getting a bit suffocating out here, waiting for my next opportunity—and by the time it comes, i’m typically crippled by my own depression and executive dysfunction.

just a never-ending cycle of fucked.

hopefully this website gives me a productive outlet, even if it’s just me screaming in the void with no one around to listen.